Nar Anon or Al Anon? Boundaries broken.
I know this is silly but I have to get it off of my chest.
There is one Nar Anon meeting in my area,(shocking with all the drug abuse in my area).
It is 1/2 hour away, in good traffic.
I went there three times.
I did feel like the others there "got" the pain and confusion I am living.
There is an Al Anon meeting 5 minutes away.
I have also gone there three times.
I feel welcomed there and the people are nice.
However, I don't think they really "get" heroin addiction.
One woman shared how her husband now substitutes golf for drinking.
Really? Is that the problem you are facing? That he is doing his best to stay in recovery?
That's how I felt. I know it's petty of me.
I'm sure that the pain others feel is just are strong as mine.
but...I am losing my son,
I am losing my son! (tears)
He came home last night under the influence.
I should have asked him to pack up and leave the home immediately.
That is the boundary. No substance abuse of any kind and go to meetings.
I am so , so weak.
I can't do it.
I looked for a meeting today. I missed it.
That's why I am here, again.
I am trying to get out of my own way today and be happy , but I am not.
I am failing.
There is one Nar Anon meeting in my area,(shocking with all the drug abuse in my area).
It is 1/2 hour away, in good traffic.
I went there three times.
I did feel like the others there "got" the pain and confusion I am living.
There is an Al Anon meeting 5 minutes away.
I have also gone there three times.
I feel welcomed there and the people are nice.
However, I don't think they really "get" heroin addiction.
One woman shared how her husband now substitutes golf for drinking.
Really? Is that the problem you are facing? That he is doing his best to stay in recovery?
That's how I felt. I know it's petty of me.
I'm sure that the pain others feel is just are strong as mine.
but...I am losing my son,
I am losing my son! (tears)
He came home last night under the influence.
I should have asked him to pack up and leave the home immediately.
That is the boundary. No substance abuse of any kind and go to meetings.
I am so , so weak.
I can't do it.
I looked for a meeting today. I missed it.
That's why I am here, again.
I am trying to get out of my own way today and be happy , but I am not.
I am failing.
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